wonder of luving that sans fear of loosing!

I always desired myself

to be all over the place... place where you walk bare-footed…

I wondered you might sneak a look before taking a step…

Unevitably I was driven to you as a moth is driven to flame &

Staying away from you became immeasurably agonizing… but then…

Another stalwart feeling magnetized me…

Little by little I started to trust myself…

Now gone are the days when my eyes used rummage around to see you every now and then…

No longer do I tussle with my feelings…

Not stifled any longer…

My eyes do not crave for you anymore…

& M not afraid of loosing you now…

Instead…

M at peace …. At complete harmony with my feelings…

At peace amidst of violence…NOW I KNOW…

Your soul is togged up in peace with my spirit…

You are the attribute of my own essence…

That I need not to look for you in every nook and corner...

Just a single glimpse in my heart would do…

I can feel you with me all the time…

Sense your warmth…

I have found my paradise where Feelings are coagulated out into great passion …

I m ecstatic for I discovered myself, ascertained the reason of my existence… discovered wonder of loving that sans fear of losing ... now I can feel the whispering music of the brook in my soul… Its kind of eternal… now I love you in the best way I can…

When you left I lost a part of me…

It is not possible.

It cannot be happening.. No, not to me….

It is all a nightmare.

I am gonna wake up anytime and it is going to be six o’ clock in the morning and

I am going to get dressed and start living a blissful life with you by my side … ah! This was my initial response…

But as time passed I had no option but to accept what was predestined…

There is an empty lonely bottomless feeling entrenched deep inside me…

I can’t stop my feeling… don’t have control over it now… I can not get along without you…

M almost caged inside a hell now ...my heart is bleeding out 4 u… I tried so hard to escape but m lost…

People said that as time went by, I would feel better but it’s not true… every day makes it worse!

I was so cold u warmed me, u gave me my pride back... n now since u left I m trembling on my own foundation…

Who is gonna gimme shoulder to lean on when times get rough…

Who is gonna talk to till the sun comes up…

Every window pane is shattering…

Cutting up my words before I speak…

In the circle of your memos when I try to accept u are not here with me in the flesh, I end where I begin…

Tell me what you suggest that I do with the rest of my life????

...i know not...

Even when you are not around,

I feel the pulse of your feelings… of Love or hatred … I know not….

The best of times or the worst of times... I know not…

My heart pounds so hard that it becomes thorny to breathe

Good or bad ... I know not

Your venomous glimpse makes me shrink inside my own skin… real or fake… I know not…

The desires within me burn smolder sturdily but

Why bone deep chill runs down through my spine …I know not…

I feel at peace amidst of violence… sunny or stormy…I know not

I discover the essence of my existence… find my paradise…

I find what I’ve been looking for…but about you I know not….