patience- its harder than i thought

I wanna sleep for a while... take a nap atleast..
thats all i can do ... i guess...
but my mind seems hyperactive to do that..
to allow unconsciousness to overtake me...

i m alone ...alone.. desolate...in pain..
in the end everybody is...each person has to die his own death...
wud it not b easy to die now??? n soon there will b no pain...

just the feeling of blessed peace....

i m drifting dangerously near a state of mind where
nothing matters but the present,

my heart is ruling my head, only thing i know is i
want peace...peace of mind..
i m strong in so many ways yet fragile..
still, pensive and a little afraid..
my heart is in ma mouth..

feel like accepting watever is offered by life...good or bad..
grasp it with both hands before it slips forever beyond my reach

i guess its all beyond your tether but i wrote it to express my mind...